Sar

everyone

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 13:02:10 GMT

hey...this is my last public entry do to recent events. I am sorry

but my journal will now be FRIENDS only. If you are not on my friends list, comment here if you want to be added

Thank you

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 23:31:20 GMT

well, my day went well. I had to be to work so early today that I about fell over and went to sleep

oh then my step dad took the car to go to the banks and crap...and I forgot to ask him to get my walker out of the car.

Before we got to the office, I drank a whole bunch of coffee...I think you know where I am going with this haha

about 30 minutes after I drank my wonderful coffee that was so good, I had to PEE REALLY BAD! However, I could not get to the bathroom because I cannot walk without my walker ya know? so my mom says, "sar just hold it till dennis gets back" I tried, but couldn't do it! Eventually she took me to the bathroom haha

hmm yep, that is all for today...have a good night...God bless

survey

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 00:59:55 GMT

RED
What is love? - Jesus Christ
Name 3 things you feel very passionate about - Jesus, Music/promoting bands, Poetry
Does fire fascinate you? - sure
Do you have a short temper? - no
Are you a friend to dragons? - hmm nah
Are you very warm hearted? - yes
Do you feel intense emotions? - yes

ORANGE
Are you bright? - I like to think I am
What are the three most wholesome things you've done lately? - eh what?
Is vibrance a good characteristic to have? - sure
Are you rich in self confidence? - it depends
Are you rich in vitamin c? - I drink orange juice every day!!

YELLOW
Are you a very happy person? - yes!
Do you like the sun? - Yes!
Do you ever feel utter and complete joy? - Yes!
Do you feel like the volume in your life is all the way up? - mostly
Do you feel warm inside when you hug people? - yes!
If you were a care bear would you be cheer bear? - yeah!
Are you lemon scented? - just call me Joy haha

GREEN
Are you incredibly lucky? - sometimes
Are you easy going? - yes
Are you very mischievious? - nah
Are you very lusty/sexy? - I like to pretend I am
Ever find a four leafed clover? - yes
Are you fresh like mint? - ya
Does nature speak to you? - nah

BLUE
Do you love to look at water? - yep
Are you calm/relaxed? - yes
Is it very difficult to upset you? - nope
Are you at peace? - yea
Are you comforting? - yep
Are you well balanced? - sometimes
Are you content? - not right at this moment

PURPLE
Are you royalty? - nah
Are you very free spirited? - yes
Are you conceited? - no
Do you have a passion for indulgence? - hmm...I dunno
Are you a grape? - sure why not...I like grapes
Are you a purple horseshoe? - no

PINK
Are you less than intense? - no
Are you incredibly feminine? - I am, but not overly feminine

BLACK
Do you absorb everything possible? - umm no
Are you incredibly energetic? - nope

GOLD
Are you expensive? - no
Are you worth it? - yes...because Loreal says so lol

Mon, 14 Jul 2003 00:33:35 GMT

ugh...mark leaves in two weeks to go to the desert. I'm going to miss him:( Very, very much...he is one of my best guy friends you know. I wish for him to stay

*sob*

the NoHo pledge

Sun, 13 Jul 2003 03:05:54 GMT

There are many times when I look around at young women today and I see them dressing as Hos. I wonder why these girls feel as if they need to dress that way...ya know, showing skin, wearing tight articles of clothing, and letting their g-strings hang out. I must say that I know the answer. It is because they want to be attractive to hommie g funk doggs...otherwise known as guys or dudes.

So brings me to the point of my entry here. I fully 200% support the NoHo Pledge. I am a special woman of God. God desires for me to respect myself in the way I dress. Young women need to know that when the right guy comes along, he will like you for who you are...that means, he will think you are sexy if you are fully clothed.

I ask you please...help the men out there. Cover yourselves up!!!! It's very difficult for men not to look you know. You can still be sexy without showing skin. Take the NoHo pledge today!!

This message has been brought to you on behalf of "today sarah saw 80.5 young girls today at the mall half clothed"

Sat, 12 Jul 2003 22:27:50 GMT

woo! The women on my friends' list are going to be so proud of me!

Today, I went shopping at Bealls, and I got 4 pairs of shorts and 7 tank tops all for $130.00! Normally, it would be like 200 and something, but I got 70% off on most everything. Yea! Go me haha

I saw Josh, Eric, and Donny from church at the mall. They were eating at chic-fli-a. Kinda funny I saw them there. I've been asking God if Josh ya know...kinda liked me, and it's been revealed to me about 5 different times...Weird. I guess I like Josh, I mean, he's 24, a really good friend, and treats me really well when I'm out with him (not in a date kinda way) But ya see...Josh is...kinda immature. I can't stand that in an older guy. I do like someone who can make me laugh of course, but don't act stupid all the time ya know? There's a difference...

But we'll see...maybe it'll be different after I get to know him even on a more personal level. eh, anyways, I still like band guy...so I'm gonna see what happens with that. Frankly it's up to God who I'm with, so I'm not worried. See and ya know what else? Josh knows I like band guy...and always asks questions about band guy and all...man, I guess that does mean Josh likes me? whatever...

moving on from my guy troubles

I'm feeling so much better today!! Like a lot:)

My mom and I saw Katie (my cousin) and her daughter (who is 3) at the mall...so we shopped with them and then ate at ruby tuesday for lunch. Let me tell you man...if you have a ruby tuesday in your area...run there and go try the strawberry lemonade...it's so frikin good!

As we left, Mckala...katie's daughter (I never can spell her name right haha) said, "bye cousin Sarah...I lobe you" That's so awesome haha:o) She's such a sweet little girl.

edit: omgosh! I forgot to mention one of the most important things I did today. Right...so, I went into sam goody and they had the Pillar remastered "Fireproof" CD there in the Christian section. A lady was over in the Christian section as well, and I told her, "I promote this band!" She says, "Oh really? I listen to the contemporary Christian station all the time and I've not ever heard of them. I told her they were Christian alternative/rapcore, so they more than likely play them in the night time hours. I told her I was going over to the secular part of the CD store, and I was gonna put the Pillar CDs behind some of the best selling albums out there. She then says, "hey let me help you with that...these kids today need something good like this band!" so I was all \m/! Then she put one in front of the Pink CD, I put one in front of the new Powerman 5000, and I also put one in the front of the store...in front of the Evanescence CD! Go me!!! The boys are gonna be so proud of me! Wait till I call them haha

ps-Today I took the NoHo Pledge! You should too!!

Bye!!!!! God bless

"The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace."-Numbers 6:26

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 15:38:04 GMT

perhaps I should type the truth to you.

I'm upset again...like very upset. I have been upset for the past week about everything. Mainly what I'm going to do with my life. I want to promote badly, but my parents do not want that...and it seems as if I've lived my life to please them...instead of God. You know about this, as I have typed about it before...but this time it's really bad. I try to focus on God, and right now I just can't...because I can't be patient and wait for doors to open...since my parents want me to do something right away. But God's plan sometimes takes waiting...I know this, but they do not...

It upsets me that I have a huge insecurity about myself still...which is honestly...that I can't deal with it when people make fun of me. I hate being upset I just hate it...I'm usually always so happy and positive...I don't know what's wrong. I'm just stuck in a rut I suppose. But I don't like this...I don't like the direction my life is going. I talk to God about this a lot...but sometimes (even for a strong believer like myself) it is hard to just shut up and listen to find out what He wants you to do in your life.

I'm hoping some doors will open very soon for my promotion with bands. I keep praying I'll get an internship at a Christian record lable and be able to get out on my own and start living my own life. You know what kills me? I'm almost 20 years old, and I still live at home and depend greatly upon my parents for help since I have my disability. I have no frikin clue what it's like to be on my own...none at all. I have no idea how to do anything without them...this scares me for when I finally am on my own. You think my future boy friend/fiance/husband is going to want to have to take care of me? No...I doubt that very much. There comes a point where I have to learn how to do it on my own. I hate feeling like I'm disappointed with who I am because I have my walker and wheelchair...come to think of it, I'm not disappointed with who I am...I never will be. But at the same time, I really dislike people that come up to me and say I need to be healed. I'm not usually upset with this, and you all know that 96% of the time, it does not bother me. So if you thought about commenting and telling me I need to be healed, please save that crap. I don't want to listen to it.

Everyone has their tough moments, and right now I am going through one of mine...don't make me feel worse than I already am

Bye, God bless

"Change"

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 03:55:47 GMT

I wish I could tell you
all that is within me
If I told you I loved you
you act like you don't care
I still remember your face
when the words came out of your mouth
they keep playing back in my mind
I just block them out
because it's something I don't want to believe
my mind drives on
but in reality I can't let go
because I miss your face
and I need you here
yet tonight you are so far away...
so absent...and I can't sense you
you are the reason for my tears.(c) SJJ 7-10-03

hey hunters!

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 01:10:33 GMT

This entry is for you!

~~haha you see the good promotion there?!~~

*clears throat*

CHRISTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT METALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!! SCREEEEEEEEEEEAM ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!

oh ya man, that was so better than last night and you know it!

now comment if you want to and leave who you are from the message board so I know haha

~~sorry to my LJ friends to have to be reading this...but you can comment to if you feel the metal! haha~~

~and one of these days...I won't be afraid of staying with you~

Thu, 10 Jul 2003 11:59:50 GMT
I'm getting ready for work right now, and I am so very tired...I just couldn't sleep last night and now my neck hurts from sleeping on it wrong.

I'm gonna post a new survey soon..should be fun

I'm going to e-mail band guy today =) yay!

I'm so very lonely right now

Have a nice day...I'll update later

God bless

woot!

Thu, 10 Jul 2003 00:28:33 GMT
took this from hextr1p

If I were a month I would be: May
If I were a day of the week I would be: Sunday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12 am
If I were a planet I would be: Venus
If I were a sea creature I would be: sea erchant
If I were a direction I would be: North.
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: Bed
If I were a sin I would be: Lust
If I were a historical figure I would be: Sarah...abraham's wife
If I were a liquid I would be: Oil...oh ya!
If I were a tree I would be: Red wood
If I were a flower/plant I would be: Tulup
If I were a kind of weather I would be: overcast
If I were a musical instrument I would be: Drums
If I were an animal I would be: A turtle
If I were a color I would be: Purple
If I were a fruit I would be: peach
If I were a berry I would be: A raspberry
If I were a sound I would be: Scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If I were an element I would be: umm wind?
If I were a car I would be: toyota matrix
If I were a song I would be: through the black...demon hunter
If I were a food I would be: Pasta!
If I were a place I would be: Aulstralia
If I were a material I would be: Cotton.
If I were a taste I would be: kiwi
If I were a scent I would be: cool water
If I were a word I would be: Dipidy!
If I were an object I would be: a computer
If I were a body part I would be: nose
If I were a facial expression I would be: happy
If I were a cartoon character I would be: strongbad man!
If I were a shape I would be an: retangle
If I were a number I would be: 3
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - Haras
[ x ] Where do you live – Florida
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up – Christian, shy, cute, flawd
DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet- it's black
[ x ] hairbrush - it's a paddle brush
[ x ] Toothbrush - medium brissles
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - nose stud, belly button barbell, thumb rings
[ x ] Pillow cover - White
[ x ] Blanket - has fishes on it
[ x ] Coffee cup - Purple
[ x ] Sunglasses ? coustom made clip ons
[ x ] Underwear ? low rise/thongs
[ x ] Shoes - adidas
[ x ] Handbag ? blue
[ x ] Favorite top ? my blindside shirt
[ x ] CD in stereo right now ? stacie orrico, cold, michelle branch
[ x ] Tattoos – 1
[ x ] Piercings – ears,.nose, and belly button
[ x ] What you are wearing now ? PJs
[ x ] Hair ? wet from the shower
[ x ] Makeup ? I wear compact/powder to keep the oil off my face, and lip gloss...man...I am seriously a lip gloss freak!
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth – Gum
[ x ] In my head – stacie orrico song
[ x ] Wishing – my legs wouldn't hurt.
[ x ] After this – talking online
[ x ] Talking to ? DHH kids
[ x ] Eating ? Gum
[ x ] Fetishes ? I like guys with spiked hair...but that's all I'm gonna say
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason ? Satan
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now ? band guy
[ x ] Is next to you ? bible/cell phone
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies ? dead poets society, final destination, a walk to remember
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month ? going to the florida Keys
[ x ] The last thing you ate ? Toaster scramble
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of ? drowning
[ x ] Do you like candles ? yes
[ x ] Do you like hot wax ? for waxing my eyebrows. Otherwise it's not my thing
[ x ] Do you like incense ? yes
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood? no, it's salty
[ x ] Do you believe in love ? Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – no, but I know God places you with the right person when it is your time
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight – No.
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - Yes.
[ x ] Do you believe in God - Yes.
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die ? I dunno
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy ? Satan.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ? A york shire terrier
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up ? 2 days
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium ? No.
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks – Yes.
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - Quarters.
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - I dunno
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods ? milk duds, rice cakes, tabasco sauce hot pop corn, hot wings
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better ? God's plan for me.
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time ? Mark
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow – do my job

attention to the hunters on the demon hunter board...

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 22:39:41 GMT
I know some of you read my journal here...so I just want to take the time and post something to you in here...hopefully you'll take the time and read this.

I'm sorry if I have made any of you upset through doing my job as one of the moderators on the board. I am sorry if I have deleted your threads that have been labled as spam, but if you read the forum rules, (which are put there from the admin) it states that spam can be a trouble for moderators to delete.

I feel really upset sometimes that people do not like how I do my job, but I am just doing what I am told. You all know that I haven't done much since I've been a moderator, and that I would never purposly delete your threads. Just every now and then if there is is spam that has NO significants whatever, then it should be deleted.

I hope you realize that I love every single one of you...and I always will...reguardless if you may dislike me at times. I hate making people mad at me, but I realize that sometimes that may have to happen when I am trying to do my job.

I am NOT randomly deleting threads, but I do try to once in a while delete the spam. If I do delete your thread please do not take it personally...because it has nothing to do with who you are

I hope you can understand this.

Thank you for reading...God bless

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 16:20:11 GMT
good morning...umm I mean afternoon!

My room is a mess, so today, I will attempt to clean *gasps* yes, that's right...I said I was going to clean

Ima get a new cell phone...I need one that folds up...Anyone know if I can still keep my same cell number?

I'll show you the one I'll be getting...it's still the sprint kyocera, but this one just folds up...

I'm gonna go now...bye, God bless

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Wed, 09 Jul 2003 01:42:48 GMT
I think I'm allergic to the soap I've been using, so I've now switched to dove.

I'm still so very tired from working...so I slept for 2 hours today when I got home...eh didn't help much, but it's better than nothing

There was a lizard in my room last night when I awoke from my nice nap, but I didn't have my glasses on (I'm blind without them haha) and I thought it was a spider or something, so I sprayed it with ant killer...only to find out when I put my glasses on I killed a little lizard. I felt bad lol

I'm going to be calling the vo-tech soon. I don't want to go back to Edison community college. I just think it's so pointless to spend 5 years in college just trying to struggle through math you know? math is so the devil!!...especially college math. I'd rather have scortching hot irons put on my feet or something than do math.

But ya'll know I *really* want to do promotion for bands...cause let's face it...God has revealed to me I'm stinkin good at it..and you know this is true. I *really* want to have a job as a promoter. My friend Mike says just to wait it out and it'll happen in God's time. He would be right...and so here I wait just praying God will open that one little door that shall be called, "look at Sarah...she is now on the road with a band working with them promoting" haha...

actually, I have called a few Christian record lables about this...mike refered me to their first lable, flicker records, and they've been a huge help to me, but all the lables are not in florida...which sucks like satan I tell you.

I just...don't want to be one of those people that doesn't love what they are doing for a job. I'm almost 20 and I want to start on it now. Heck with what my parents say...I'm doing what God wants

and so ends my entry

God bless

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 21:37:00 GMT
man, I had such a LONG day. I'm so very tired right now, I can't even begin to explain it...I'm so wiped out from work today

I got my new glasses...they are so very nice too

My cousin told me today that her friend got abused by her boy friend...it was in the paper and everything. He tried to kill her and tried to force her to have sex. People like that are sick.

anyways, I must go for now

God bless

"I appeal to you,...that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought."-1 Corinthians 1:10

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 15:11:38 GMT
please keep my mom in your prayers/thoughts. She has been drinking again. I just really want her to be happy. She's so EMO all the time...sad, very sad. She has a lot of depression inside of her, and it breaks my heart to see her drinking and being upset. Her and my step dad fight a lot...last night they got into a huge argument, and while he is back today, they still haven't said much to each other. I keep praying that my mom will find Jesus and get to know Him like I do...it's so very hard on me to see her go through this all the time...seriously, she drinks every night.

I'm still so very scared for when I turn 21 next year. I'm scared that I'll end up having a drinking problem just like her. I'm just going to be a happy sXe kid like I've always been and not drink. I'll stick to my 100% sXe drink...orange slice haha

well...plans for today

-go visit my piercer so she can check up on my nose
-go to wal*mart
-go to kmart
-get some lunch at burger king

yep, fun times ahead. I love you all, have a wonderful day

EDIT: I took godforbid's advice and got the new Michelle Branch CD...it's very good! Thank you for the recommendation:) I also got the swift's CD today...very good too! Got my piercing checked up on...Roshell said it will be healed in two months:) Rented some movies too. Stealing Harvard...I really wanted Final Destination 2, but that does not come out until the 22nd...and since I have the first one, I know I have to buy the second one as well..I won't even rent it, I'll just buy it haha

stole this from atayarani

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 03:31:43 GMT

[ current clothes ] jeans and a shirt
[ current mood ] bleh
[ current music ] seventh day slumber
[ current taste ] m&ms
[ current hair ] down
[ current annoyance ] my mom's country music
[ current smell ] plug ins
[ current thing I ought to be doing ] sleeping, cause I'm tired
[ current desktop picture ] strongbad
[ current favorite group] .hopesfall.
[ current book you're reading] Acts 19
[ current movie in dvd player ] final destination
[ current color of toenails ] natural
[ current refreshment ] pepsi
[ current worry ] nothing

Last Person...

[ you touched ] I gave my mom a hug today
[ you talked to ] band guy
[ you hugged ] my mom
[ you instant messaged ] mark
[ you yelled at ] charlie
[ you kissed ] I've not ever kissed yet

Favorite...

[ food ] pasta
[ drink ] coke
[ color ] purple
[ album ] "drawing black lines"-Project 86
[ shoes ] adidas
[ candy ] butterfinger
[ animal ] black labs
[ TV show ] dawsons creek (r.i.p)
[ movie ] dead poets society
[ dance ] I can't dance
[ song(s) ] I can only imagine, kill me...heal me, silence, cute boring love
[ vegetable ] green pepper
[ fruit ] kiwi
[ cartoon ] cow and chicken

Are You...

[ understanding] yes
[ open-minded ] very much
[ arrogant ] no
[ insecure ] too often
[ interesting ] I think so
[ random ] yes
[ hungry ] no
[ friendly ] yes
[ smart ] yes
[ moody ] yes
[ childish ] sometimes
[ independent ] yes
[ hard working ] depends
[ organized ] yes
[ healthy ] yes
[ emotionally stable ] yes
[ shy ] of course you know this!
[ difficult ] no
[ attractive ] people tell me I am...so yes?
[ bored easily ] yep
[ messy ] sometimes
[ thirsty ] yes
[ responsible ] yes
[ obsessed ] nah
[ angry ] no
[ sad ] no
[ happy ] yes
[ hyper ] depends
[ trusting ] very
[ talkative ] with the right person

Who Do You...

[ kill ] satan
[ slap ] satan
[ tickle] hmm I dunno
[ kiss ] no one (I conclude this is speaking of significant others?)
[ look like ] myself
[ talk to offline ] dan
[ talk to online ] many people

**************

Write either "pro", "con" or "in the middle"

*Affirmative Action- con
*Teenage Drinking- con
*Cell Phone bans in school- pro
*Cell Phone bans on the road- pro
*Capitol Punishment- pro
*Catholic Priests allowed to marry- pro
*Censorship of:
music- con
books- con
games- con
internet- con
*Embryo (Stem Cell) Research- I have no idea what that is haha
*Gangs in America- con
*Homosexual Marriages- con
*Gun Control- pro
*Random Drug Testing- pro
*Racial Profiling- con
*School Prayer- pro
*Separation of Church and State- con
*Sexual Education- con. I kinda believe if kids/teens want to know about sex, they should go to their parents to learn
*Abstinence Only Education-pro
*Standardized Testing- pro
*Abortion- con
*Tobacco Advertising- CON
*Zero Tolerance in School- pro
*Mandatory Recycling- con
*School Uniforms- con
*Immigration- pro
*Banning of Extremist Groups- pro
*Clone Research- con
*Home schooling- pro...some people have to have that due to having operations you know.
*Time Limits of Welfare- pro
*Smoking in school- con

note: on some of the above issues I was confused, you'll have to ignore my stupidity
**************

[You and Others]

Are you special? Yes indeed
If yes, what makes you special? who knows
What attracts you to the opposite (or same) sex? well guys and spiked hair...that's nice
What do you think makes you appeal to others? my smile I guess...everyone says I have a great smile
Do you feel comfortable in crowds? depends who I'm with, mostly no
Do you feel comfortable being touched (Hugged etc) by other people? sure. I like hugs
Do you feel comfortable sharing possessions with others? yeah
Do you feel comfortable trusting others? I only trust God and my family
Who, or what, has been the biggest positive influence on your life? Jesus Christ
Who, or what, has been the biggest negative influence on your life? Satan
Who has been the greatest support to you? Jesus Christ
Who has been a hindrance or annoyance in your life? Satan
Do you find it easy to admit you're wrong? yes
Do you find it easy to apologize? yes

[Recent Things]

What was the last dream you remember? I was at some concert
What do you think that dream was trying to tell you? I dunno
What was the last thing you said to someone? I love you
What was the last good deed you did for someone? prayed for them/witnessed to them
What was the last bad turn you did for someone? I dunno
When was the last time you smiled? today :)
Why did you smile? I talked to God
Who was the last friend you spoke to? band guy
What do you think of that friend? he's very special to me
How do you feel now? *falls over and goes to sleep*

[Reactions]

How do you react to:
A couple being affectionate together: so sweet. But too much PDA is gross
A homosexual couple being affectionate together: whatever, just don't let me see it.
A sex scene on TV/Film: makes me think of the day when I will have a spouce
A person in tears before you: I hug them
Someone being bullied/attacked: I'll stick up for them
A tragedy or accident in the News: I stop and pray
Some scandal on someone famous/important in the News: Who cares
Charity advertisements (TV or otherwise): we need more of them
Praise from friends/loved ones: ehh...I dunno
Insults from friends/loved ones: I get upset
Praise from strangers: I dunno
Insults from strangers: not cool

[Opportunity]
If the opportunity came, would you sooner:

Travel to see a long lost old best friend, or a loved one: loved one
Go out partying all night or stay in at home: Stay at home
Move to live in a new city, or live where you were raised: move
Date a celebrity, or stick with what you know: stick with the guy I know
Start a career in music or within acting: music
Become rich or famous: Rich
Live within a large house or small apartment: large house
Marry young and live happily ever after, or have multiple fun flings forever: marry young
Become known for famous or infamous deeds: famous

[The Future]

What are you going to do after this? sleeeeeep
What are you going to do tomorrow? buy CDs
What are your plans for the next five years? go wherever God chooses to take me
What do you honestly think will happen in another five years? whatever God wants
Have you changed within the past five years? yes
Do you think you'll change within another five years? probably
What career did you want as a child? something with music
What career do you want now? something with music
Do you want to live to be 100? sure, why not
Do you believe in life after death or reincarnation? there is life after death. It's called eternity with Jesus

[Finally]

What do you want now? e-mail
How are you going to get/do it? wait for e-mail
What question do you wish you were asked? who cares
How would you answer that question? this is a stupid question

Fri, 04 Jul 2003 18:53:57 GMT
I have to pee again, but yet here I sit too attatched to the computer to get up...haha

I'm going to go driving later...hopefully before Charlie gets home from fishing to take me to mom's house

there are some rain clouds right now...but I like rain, so let it come! I've been so very tired today...probably because of the fact that I got up at 7:15 am only to remember that my step mom didn't have to work and that she was waiting for the tile guy...then I couldn't go back to sleep at all which figures...and now I am dead tired

have a safe 4th of july weekend...while you are out celebrating, I'll be home...yet again doing nothing...oh, but maybe I'll make it a DVD night

Jah bless...bye

Fri, 04 Jul 2003 02:54:10 GMT
I should know better by now than to go out with my brother to our usual hangout aka chili's. He always ends up inviting 10 people, one of which is Christian but always gets so drunk off his face...they all do. I don't like to be around that type of enviroment. I'm always so quite around his group of friends...even if I know them well, I still don't ever say much

for example...tonight my brother hit on two chicks and has this friend whom is called Budda. Right well the girls came over, and they introduced themselves to everyone around the table but me. My social skills need some work...I'm still so very shy even though I'm almost 20. I'm just very mellow and choose not to talk unless I'm spoken to. I'm also a firm believer in being sXe...meaning I feel that I don't need to fill my body with alcohol or sex to have a good time.

sometimes I feel like saying to mark (charlie's Christian friend) "so how far does drinking and having sex get you...don't you at all care about your walk with Christ especially since everyone knows you are a Christian?"

I need more friends. I need to go out more with people whom can have a good time and be sXe whether or not they are Christians

someone come to port charlotte and be my friend and hang out with me haha

good night

why can't we all just be happy sXe kids???!!! haha

ps-I miss S :( he's busy with the band and all so we haven't talked in a week or two

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 17:22:24 GMT
woah. I just spent a while reading my friends' page...how fun

my nose is looking so pretty, but it's time for the afternoon cleaning soon

charlie is coming to dad's today! I hope we go out tonight for dinner or something. For some reason I really want to get dressed up

I'm going to make some roman noodles for lunch...good times. I went outside today to take the dogs out...I swear it must be 99* out. It sucks...florida sucks...it's always too hot.

Mom was late with paying my cell phone bill, so I hope they don't turn it off on me

Today is a wonderful day though. Over the past few days, God has just been so working in my life revealing things to me and helping me out. Thank You Jesus:)

ps-Justifide won't be coming to play at my church. Reason being is because when I talked to pastor Rick, I told him that mrs. M didn't give me an estimate on how much it would cost. She just told me, "once you decide on a date, I'll give you the price...it varies by state." which I thought was weird. Oh well, I'm still super happy =o)

God bless!!

Thu, 03 Jul 2003 01:26:20 GMT
man yo...the tile guy is so slow at doing his job. See, at my dad's house we have this bar/counter and on the outside of the bar/counter we are putting tile on it.

well don our tile guy decides to take his time on it and it's been 4 days now...with a job that he couldv'e finished in 2 had he not been standing around watching tv and arriving at our house late every day.

I got to talk to mark tonight:) But he's not doing well for some reason he won't tell me (he just says it's not worth reliving) so if you could keep him in your thoughts/prayers that would be great

I have to go and call my mom now. Have a great night

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 01:31:49 GMT
ok,
so I dunno if I mentioned in here...my mom is over my nose piercing, my step dad is still mad at me but like my dad said, "technically it's none of his business because it's not his body" anyways, I go sunday for my update with my piercer to make sure everything is going ok. I told my mom that and she said, "she wants to check up on you because nose piercings are nasty" <---mom still thinks they're nasty...nothing will change that...oh well.

So ya, Charlie will be here on Thurdsday to come to dad's. I asked him if he would take me on Thursday instead of having me go on sunday so my mom didn't have to bring me...he said yes.

oh man, this morning at about 5 am, I was sleeping and woke up to roll over and BAM...I hit my piercing. I about died...it's looking really well though and it's starting to itch already which is a good sign that it is healing.

Stay blessed, have a wonderful night. God bless:)

I got it!!!!!!!!

Sun, 29 Jun 2003 18:30:43 GMT
hey friends! you'll be happy to know that today I went with my dad and got my nose done. It didn't hurt that much at all...now there's just a little bit of pressure but not that bad at all.

I swear you guys, it looks so very good on me:) I'm very happy!

frikin heck

Sat, 28 Jun 2003 04:37:02 GMT
someone just called my cell phone. I couldn't get to it however, because it was in the other room with my mom's purse.

I got to it though...and it said i had new voice mail...so I checked it and it came up private...they didn't leave a message either. Let's observe something shall we...it will be called "who sarah has given her cell phone number to"

-family
-a few close friends
-a guy that is on the pillar street team...dave
-S

now that's probably a grand total of 10 people (if that) who have my number.

I can think of 3 logical things-

-it was someone locally that called and got the wrong number while showing up as "private"

-it was dave and he was just a bum and didn't want to leave a message

or...

-it was S. I've been waiting for him to call me. But you know for sure he would be sweet enough to leave a frikin voice mail message saying, "hey Sar, it's S just calling you to say hi"

figures if it was him that I'd miss his call

this makes me upset...I want to know who called me lol

finally made the decision

Sat, 28 Jun 2003 03:50:17 GMT
I'm going to get my nose pierced this weekend:)

worked today...then went to kmart with my mom. Bought a new cute outfit and some sandals =-)

nothing more to update on...have a good night

**Sar**

everyone

survey

the NoHo pledge

"Change"

hey hunters!

~and one of these days...I won't be afraid of staying with you~

woot!

attention to the hunters on the demon hunter board...

stole this from atayarani

I got it!!!!!!!!

frikin heck

finally made the decision

Sar